I was disgusted in myself. I had given up, I was ashamed of how I had let myself go.
Every day I woke up sore, my feet ached and throbbed. I was quickly winded after around 5 minutes of walking. I was embarrassed to go anywhere. I became a recluse; I feared going out in public because I always felt people were judging me.
I remember the first time someone referred to me as "big guy." I looked around and thought, who me? When had I become the "big guy"?
I knew I had been gaining weight steadily, and every day I looked in the mirror and thought man I'm getting fat, but I had somehow contorted my mind into thinking it wasn't that bad. I avoided scales at all cost because then I would have to come to terms with the fact that I had absolutely let it get out of control.
I started becoming more conscious of how I was being viewed by others. When I would take my seat on airplanes I saw the look of horror on the other passengers face when they realized they would have to sit next to me.
The one thing in this world I loved the most was going to the Bengals games. When I would take my seat I immediately became conscious of my fatness encroaching over my seat and over onto the person sitting next to me. Sure, some people were awesome and were polite but in my mind everyone was judging me and my weight was ruining someone else good time.
At that point I realized my weight problem wasn't just my problem, it had gotten so out of control that my fatness was affecting those around me. It wasn't necessarily the strangers I was bothering that really got to me, it was my loved ones.
I never for one second thought my family and friends thought any less of me for being fat; they were all incredible and always made me feel loved no matter what. My fiancé Sonya has always been there no matter what I put her though. She went through years of never going out, being a shut in with me.
She always made me feel attractive and was never anything but supportive sometimes even too supportive, lol. I would send her out at all hours of the night for fast food and milkshakes and never complained. I knew she deserved better out of me but I was depressed; I told myself I was too far gone and I had resigned myself to a life of being ashamed and obese.
I knew I'd never find someone who cared about me the way she did, she loved me no matter what I put her through no matter what I looked like, so I decided to lock her down and asked her to marry me. She said yes, and then I started thinking after all she has done for me she deserves better.
Please Detail Your Turning Point
New Years came and I had made the same resolution I had made every year for the past five years. I was going to get in shape, but just like every other year day two I was back to my old ways eating fast food and sitting on the couch.
On January 23rd, 2015, I woke up and looked at myself in the mirror. I saw my gut lapping over my shorts, the stretch marks running down my stomach and on my arms, and the neck fat lapping over my chins. I told myself I was better than that, then I did what I had dreaded for years.
I stepped on the scale. I closed my eyes because I wasn't prepared for the number I saw. Boom! 300.8! 300 pounds... no way, I thought. This scale must be wrong, I knew I had been gaining weight but surely I couldn't have gained that much!
I came to the realization that it was time to quit lying to myself, I wasn't just fat I was morbidly obese
What Were Your Major Struggles or Challenges?
Sticking to the diet. With temptation everywhere it was hard to make to right decision about what to eat. Also when exercising it was hard because I could tell everyone was judging me and people would make rude comments about me.
Detail Your Workout and Cardio Plan During Your Transformation
Started only doing cardio, used the elliptical on zero resistance and was gassed after five minutes. As I started losing weight I increased my intervals and resistance up five minutes and one resistance level until I got to an hour and a resistance of 15. I then began lifting weights using the dream body app on my phone to track my gains.
Detail Your Diet/Eating Plan During Your Transformation
High protein, low carbs, no soda and a lot of water. Breakfast was usually egg whites, wheat English muffin, fruits oatmeal. Lunch was usually made the evening before typically chicken breast, turkey wraps, salads, low calorie soups.
I always kept smart ones/lean cuisines in my freezer if I didn't feel like prepping my lunch for the next day. Dinner usually either chicken, fish, turkey, or lean red meat. A lot of black and green beans, rice and quinoa. Granola/Quest bars as snacks. Cut out candies and fast food.
Detail Your Supplement Plan During Your Transformation
- MTS Drop Factor, yohimbine - Thermogenic
- MTS Machine Whey - Protein
- MTS Clash/Vasky - Pre-workout
- MTS Machine Fuel - Intra-workout BCAA's
- Run Everything Labs Onward - Mood stabilizer and energy
- Garcinia Cambogia
Lost 80 pounds in 6 months. Dropped a total of 88 in 9 months and cut 10 inches off of my waist and went from a size 52 suit to a 44.
Detail Your 3 Biggest Mistakes
- Got discouraged early on when weight didn't just fly off.
- Kept junk foods and candy in the house and told myself that I had enough self control to keep it in moderation.
- Cut calories too low to the point where I would feel faint and was extremely dangerous for my health.
- Life is too short to live miserable. Set a goal and don't give up until you achieve it. Anyone can do anything they put their mind to it.
- Portion control and choosing healthier options is the key to losing weight quickly. Foods high in protein left me feeling full longer and cut down on my snacking.
- Drinking tons of water does wonders. I start every morning with a gallon of water and usually refill 2 more times through the day. Keeps satiety up and helps with just about every other aspect of health
Quit making excuses and make it happen. I spent way too many years being miserable because I told myself it was impossible and that I was destined to be fat forever.
Today is as good as any other to change your life for the better. Anything worth it in life is hard work but the payoff is so great I wish I could go back in time and get the last 10 years back! If I can do it you can too!
I have gained so much confidence, feel a million times better, and every aspect of my life has gotten exponentially better. At work I feel like I command more respect, my relationship with my friends and family has gotten stronger because now I can go out and spend time in public places without feeling bad about myself.
Anyone who is reading this and is waiting to change your life no matter what it is, life is too short! I'm a long way away from where I want to be physically but I'm working on it. Hopefully I can hit my target weight within the next 6 months and even if I don't I'm not going to stop until I do and I REFUSE to live one more day of my life obese!